Of Time Gone By ~ Section XII

    By Bekah


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    Chapter Thirty-Nine

    Posted on Friday, 13 June 2008

    Although he had been reduced to a most unpleasantly helpless state by the nature of his injuries, no amount of physical discomfort could cause Fitzwilliam Darcy to forsake his pride; and so, as Dr. Grantley prodded about his ribs during a routine examination, Darcy attempted very stalwartly not to betray even the slightest wince for the benefit of his sister and Elizabeth, who were watching attentively while the physician hummed and mumbled to himself as he went about the inspection.

    It did not pain Darcy nearly so much as it had even in the previous week – the discomfort was more a sort of trifling soreness than real agony. The tenderness, although irksome, was to be expected, and Dr. Grantley assured him that his ribs had stitched together quite well; it did not appear that any resetting or rebinding would be necessary to complete the process.

    At length the good doctor pulled away to scrub his hands in the nearby basin; he looked less grim than usual, which his companions had quickly learned meant the imminent revelation of some sort of excellent news. “Well, Miss Bennet,” he said mildly, replacing a few instruments into his leather handbag, “I believe you may carry on with your preparations for this evening.”

    Georgiana let out a cry of pleasure, and Elizabeth reached out and grasped Darcy’s hand excitedly. “There, do you see?” she told him, her eyes bright and shining. “I knew you would be well enough!”

    The physician glanced over indulgently at the ladies. “I hope you are feeling well enough to endure the enthusiastic congratulations of all your friends, Mr. Darcy?”

    “I d-daresay I c-can manage th-them, th-thank you.”

    “Well, I hope you may enjoy it as well as they shall,” he said. “You have my full leave to stay up and about for as long as you choose – but you must promise me that the moment you begin to feel discomfort in your side or your chest, you will return to your bed.”

    Darcy, glad of the opportunity to rise from his curtained prison, did not hesitate to give the physician his solemn promise, and the two ladies immediately seconded that oath with one of their own to keep watch over him.

    “Good, good.” Dr. Grantley removed his spectacles and placed them carefully in his coat pocket. “Very good indeed. I would not wish you to undo all this improvement because of any sheer perverseness of will.” The pointedness of that particular observation was keenly felt, for the doctor, who had passed a fair amount of years as the Darcys’ personal physician, was well-acquainted with Mr. Darcy’s own peculiar brand of stubbornness. “I have spoken with Mr. Jones, sir, and if you have no objections, I believe I will return to London upon the morrow. Your wounds appear now to be of such a nature as can easily be dealt with by an apothecary – I have left him with instructions on the binding of your ribs, should they begin to pain you too badly. Will that be agreeable, sir?”

    Although surprised by the unexpected announcement, Darcy gave his consent readily enough. “Of c-course – you have sp-spent too much t-time here already, away from your family. I th-thank you for your attention.”

    Dr. Grantley unbent so far as to smile. “You are very welcome, sir.” He gathered up his bag. “Shall you require assistance downstairs?”

    “Phipps and I shall attend him, thank you,” Georgiana said; the doctor nodded, bowed smartly, and went out the door.

    “Shall we go, Fitzwilliam?” Elizabeth asked.

    He eagerly straightened, as if the mere suggestion of departure had given him added strength. “Yes, p-please. Ph-Phipps?”

    The valet appeared promptly and shooed the ladies outside. It took only a few minutes to assist Darcy into appropriate clothing, and the gentlemen soon rejoined Georgiana and Elizabeth in the hall.

    The journey down the staircase was a slow process, but Darcy managed it quite well, although his legs appeared a little weak from disuse, and by the time they reached the base of the stairwell, he was forced to lean heavily on Phipps’s supporting arm.

    Elizabeth hovered anxiously nearby, trying not to interfere every time she saw him falter or misstep. She knew he would not appreciate her help, for she saw it embarrassed him enough to have to rely on the assistance of a manservant to do a task as simple as walking. Beginning to understand Jane’s excessive reluctance to allow Bingley to resume his normal activities, she followed them carefully, filled with concern that more injury to his recovering body might be the lone result of this careless excursion.

    After all, it had been little more than four weeks since he had been so badly hurt – and really, what need did he have of coming downstairs at all? Why, it was positively reckless! What had Dr. Grantley been thinking? Staying in bed for another fortnight – or two, just to err on the side of caution – was a much safer alternative.

    Despite her fears, he maneuvered the rest of the distance to the parlor with relative ease; the real danger proved to be found in his destination, for as soon as he set foot inside, he was nearly tramped by a veritable herd of Bennets.

    “Mr. Darcy!” Mrs. Bennet cried, elbowing through her throng of daughters to pat his cheek in a motherly fashion. “How very sweet it is to see you looking so well – although your face still is cut up something dreadful, poor, dear man.” She tittered. “But never mind that. We are all of us so very glad to see you well again. Are we not, girls?”

    There was a chorus of agreement; Jane, with her tender heart, shed a few tears to see him so well recovered, while Bingley – who had lingered in the back to avoid injury to his own person – managed to wriggle forward enough to whisper congratulations to his friend for having escaped from the control of his lovely jailor – who, he presently noticed, was staying very close to Darcy’s side, one hand unconsciously hovering near his arm to support him should he lose his balance among so much bustling activity.

    To put her mind at ease and prevent any mishap, Bingley suggested that they might all sit down for a spell, and Mrs. Bennet immediately set to directing her daughters and their guests to seats around the fire. Eager to see that everything was made perfect for this special occasion, Mrs. Bennet had spared no expense in arranging for a lovely meal; one, in fact, which had included such a variety of items as made it impossible for the small kitchen staff to have it ready to serve at the usual hour.

    A few minutes, before the arrival of the Darcys downstairs, had been spent in a brief but intense outpouring of vexation over this conundrum; but she had eventually dealt with the delay the only way she could: as soon as everyone was settled, she rang for a tray of refreshments so that her visitors might have something to occupy themselves with in the half-hour they were to sit idle – there would then be employment for the whole party; for though they could not all talk, they could all eat, and in Mrs. Bennet’s experience, a large slice of Mrs. Hill’s gingerseed cake went a long way towards dispelling any impatient humors.

    Elizabeth, so occupied with seeing Darcy safely ensconced in a chair, did not for several minutes notice the conspicuous absence of one Bennet in particular. Only when she had risen to serve refreshments from the tray Hill brought did she turn about to ask for her father’s preference as to tea or coffee, and discover that he was not there.

    “Jane,” she said quietly to her sister, who had come over to help her, “where is Papa?”

    Jane looked distinctly uncomfortable. “I believe he is in his library, Lizzy – there are accounts to be done, I think.”

    “He will not join us?”

    “I....He said he was very busy today.”

    Elizabeth’s hands clenched in her skirts; she could do little but nod and turn her attention back to the cart, trying not to show her dismay.

    “Lizzy?” Jane tugged discreetly at her sleeve. “Lizzy, I am sure he truly is busy; it is near to harvest, and he always has so much business to attend to.”

    “Not so much that he cannot take an hour or two away from it,” Elizabeth returned. She paused and set aside the teapot, feeling a little ill. “He must be very angry with me.”

    “Surely not. Your....” Jane hesitated. “....disagreement...happened days ago. He has certainly forgiven you for any offense.”

    “I should be very surprised if he has. I was so angry, and so frightfully rude. No daughter ought to address her father as I did, Jane, no matter the provocation.” She nibbled thoughtfully at her lower lip and her expression darkened, for her musings gave her little pleasure. “He has not done well by us, and his behavior has been so odd these days! I thought he liked Fitzwilliam. I thought, once he knew him....” With more force than was necessary, she set down the pot, resulting in a clatter of china that drew a good deal of attention from the others.

    “Lizzy, Jane, do hurry,” Mrs. Bennet fretted. “We will dine soon, and without anything beforehand if you cannot finish. Kitty, go help your sisters.”

    “No, no, stay where you are, Kitty. We are almost done.” Elizabeth poured another cup before leaning forward to whisper, “Jane, Papa has been so cold to him, as if he were a stranger, as if he were not welcome here. He only came to visit upstairs once or twice and was civil, but I know Fitzwilliam must have felt it. How could he not? There was so marked a change in Papa’s manner toward him.”

    “I hope it is not as you say....Perhaps there has been a misunderstanding?”

    Elizabeth smiled ruefully. “I wish I could think so, but I cannot. Papa made it very clear that he does not approve.”

    “He has given you his consent already.”

    “Yes, and I do not think he would ever rescind his word – but Jane, that does not mean that he is pleased. He did not like it from the first; he tried to warn me away from it, telling me that the entire situation might end badly. He is not being just, not to me, not to Fitzwilliam.” She paused. “Although, all things considered, I cannot say that his predictions were entirely wrong. It will be difficult, Jane, of that I have no doubt. I have been thinking about it of late, ever since....Well, you know.”

    Jane’s eyes widened a little; she picked up the teapot distractedly and then promptly put it back down. “You are not regretting anything, are you?”

    “What? Oh, no, no – no, never that! How could you think so?”

    “I hate to interrupt this conference,” Bingley’s voice cut into their discussion, “but I believe your mother is determined to have her tea.” He picked up one of the readied saucers and paused. “I think I would prefer tea myself, if you have one ready.”

    Still absorbed with her conversation with Elizabeth, Jane absently piled a handful of sugar lumps in a teacup and thrust it in Bingley’s direction.

    Startled by her abruptness, he took it and started to walk away, only to pause and stare down at the cup in his hands. “Jane?”

    She looked over at him a little impatiently, wanting to return to her conversation without any more interruption.

    Elizabeth saw the amusement overtake his surprise; he pressed the cup back into her hands. “I do thank you, but I prefer my sugar with a little tea.”

    Pink with embarrassment, Jane hurried to fill his cup. Hiding a smile, Elizabeth helped her carry over the rest of the drinks; and occupied with cake and tea and light conversation, the remainder of the thirty minutes passed by pleasantly enough.

    Mrs. Hill presently ushered them in to dine; and since the meal was to be an informal one, everyone chose their own places. Elizabeth made certain to sit across from Darcy, where she might be best able to see his face and consequently be sure that he was not being tired unduly by the activity.

    Kitty, who had said little at Darcy’s first entrance, came to sit on his other side, smiling shyly at him. “Are you feeling much better, Mr. Darcy? Lizzy says you are.”

    “I am, th-thank you, Miss C-Catherine. Your sister has b-been a very attentive nurse.”

    Mrs. Bennet giggled. “A vastly handsome thing to say, is it not, Lizzy?”

    Elizabeth smiled, the good humor pervading the room making her own spirits rise. She had missed the company of her family – as irritating and tiresome as it often could be – during her long hours spent above-stairs. “Very handsome, indeed,” she said, “but then Mr. Darcy’s opinion is not disinterested. He could scarcely give a report any less glowing in such company as this, no matter how undeserving of praise I might prove to be.”

    “I sh-should not have wished for anyone else,” he murmured for only her ears, as Mrs. Bennet launched into a loud rejoinder that her daughters were certainly as well qualified to care for invalids as any other girls.

    She peeked at him from over her shoulder. “Is that so? Well, I suppose I have not done anything so very wrong, but I do not think I will take up such an office in the future. I believe I spent most of my time trying to force more food upon you, or falling asleep when I ought to have been watching you. It was very mortifying, you know, to have to be woken up by your valet to find that I was sprawled in that chair with my face buried in your blankets. It was hardly a dignified position.”

    “On the c-contrary, Elizabeth – I th-thought the view quite ch-charming.”

    The words were spoken in his usual measured tones, but there was such a suggestive tilt to one brow as gave the statement an entirely new meaning. She felt herself begin to color, and then she laughed, swatting him lightly on the arm. “Teasing, teasing man!”

    She saw his lips twitch. “I am afraid you c-cannot hold the m-monopoly on the amusement. I d-demand my f-fair share of t-teasing.”

    “Oh, very well, if you insist. But you must not make me an object of too much ridicule, Mr. Darcy.”

    “I never would d-dare to, Miss B-Bennet. You have b-been involved in th-this study for many years; wh-while I must c-content myself with being nothing more th-than an apprentice in the art. I have great hopes th-that I will improve as t-time goes on, b-but for now, I will not attempt t-too much.”

    “I will do my best to be understanding, then,” she said, “since you are not at your full potential.”

    “I d-do not suppose you c-could t-torment me now, if only for the s-sake of your own c-conscience. You must have b-been t-taught never to compound injury with insult.”

    “Yes, it would make me seem the worst sort of villain. Very well, you are safe from harassment now. I hope you will accustom yourself once you are better, for I can be a merciless sort of creature.”

    He smiled. “So th-there may be an advantage t-to all this after all?”

    Mary, spying the opportunity for a well-placed platitude, adjusted her spectacles to peer at him sternly over the rims. “We are reminded, Mr. Darcy, that trials, sent to test our fortitude, may reveal themselves to be blessings in disguise. We ought not to despair over such trivialities, for once the tribulation is concluded, there is a reward to be found in having preserved our strength of character.”

    Lydia, who had taken a chair next to Mary, rolled her eyes; and sought to turn the conversation to her own satisfaction before Mary could say anything more, leaning across her sister’s plate to tug insistently on Mr. Darcy’s sleeve.

    “Are you quite as well as the doctor says?” she demanded, the instant Darcy favored her with his attention. “You do not look half so bad as you did before – we were all quite frightened for you then. Are you sure you feel so well to be out of bed?”

    “I b-believe I am. I am s-sorry to hear my ap-pearance alarmed you.”

    She waved her hand in a gesture that struck him as being very reminiscent of her mother’s nervous flutterings. “Not at all – you were not that horrid; besides, the scars make you look very dashing.” There was a contemplative pause as she tipped back to study his face. “You look rather like a pirate, I think.”

    “Just like ‘Pagan’ Paddington Pomferrey!” Kitty giggled.

    Darcy blinked. “Paddington who?”

    “‘Pagan’ Paddington Pomferrey – he is the gallant captain of the HMS Marauder, of course, from Mrs. Byrne’s The Pagan Pirate,” Lydia informed him loftily. “Pagan used to be an officer under the King’s service, before he was unjustly imprisoned by the wicked Marquis of Tiebauld –”

    “On spurious charges of treason,” Kitty cut in.

    “– and when he was released seven years later, he renounced the navy and took to sailing the high seas with a crew of infamous brigands, raiding any English ship that dared to approach the Marauder.” Lydia lowered her voice conspiratorially. “And he steals not only jewels and spices but also any beautiful maiden who is unlucky enough to be on board a ship when it is raided. In fact, he is so wild that he was given the nickname ‘Pagan,’ for they said that he lost all regard for propriety and decency during his years in gaol.”

    “But he is very handsome,” Kitty again interrupted, “and he is quite reformed after he meets Lady Seraphina Silverveil, who is the only daughter of the Lord Mayor of Gavelberry. Pagan kidnaps her right off her father’s frigate and carries her away, and they have the most marvelous adventures.”

    “I s-see.”

    “Kitty and I are quite wild for it – we could not stop reading once we had got it from the lending library. Would you like to borrow it?”

    “I th-thank you, b-but I th-think you would b-better enjoy it than I,” Darcy said gravely.

    “Oh, very well then, but you do not know what you’re missing.” Lydia wrinkled her nose at Elizabeth, who was listening with great amusement. “But Lizzy does not care for Mrs. Byrne’s novels – she prefers boring old histories, I suppose. Romances are not grand enough for her.”

    “Lydia,” Jane said mildly, “Lizzy may read what she cares to. Her tastes simply differ from yours.”

    “I don’t see why you should scold me, Jane,” Lydia sniffed, “for you read The Pagan Pirate twice yourself.”

    Elizabeth glanced over with widened eyes at her elder sister, who reddened and looked down guiltily at her hands.

    Concealing an involuntary chuckle under the guise of a cough, Darcy remarked, “I assure you, Miss L-Lydia, th-that should I ever have the d-desire to avail myself of a g-good novel, I will look to Mrs. B-Byrne first.”

    Lydia favored him with a smile for that piece of diplomacy, but any further discussion of novels, good or otherwise, was forestalled by the unanticipated entrance of Mr. Bennet. There was a moment of stillness as the elder gentleman paused just inside the door, looking sedately out over the assembled company. Elizabeth hardly knew where to look or what to say – but Darcy bravely met his eyes and ventured a smile.

    Mr. Bennet gave no outward indication that he had noticed; he offered his wife a brief apology for arriving late and took his seat at the head of the table. He gave no explanation, nor any other word of greeting.

    The meal was promptly served, but Elizabeth could not enjoy it. Her attention returned every other minute to her father, who ate and spoke little and watched the interaction along the table with a brooding air.

    At length, unable to countenance it, she made to bold to inquire, “Has your business been finished to your satisfaction, Papa?”

    “Yes.”

    “Good.” Never had Elizabeth found it so difficult to find something to say. “I...I hope it was not very tedious?”

    “Not very.” He set down his fork and motioned to the attending servant to refill his wineglass.

    “Oh.”

    Darcy took pity on her and added his own contribution. “Have you h-had much s-success with your harvest th-this year, sir?”

    “A tolerable amount.”

    “My st-steward has informed me th-that the crops in D-Derbyshire are doing rather p-poorly. The p-past few years have seen a f-fair decrease in rainfall.”

    The elder man nodded and turned his attention back to his meal, but a new glumness seemed to descend upon him. Darcy exchanged a worried look with Elizabeth but said nothing more; and apart from the occasional sporadic outburst of chatter from Mrs. Bennet and her youngest daughters, the only sound in the room was the muted clink of silverware.

    The dessert plates were cleared away, and before Mrs. Bennet could suggest that the ladies retire to the drawing room, Mr. Bennet rose. Linking his hands behind his back and clearing his throat, he began, “Jane, have you and Mr. Bingley set a new date?”

    “No, Papa.” She looked over inquiringly at Bingley, who hastened to add, “We should prefer sometime sooner than later, sir – but not so speedily that Darcy cannot stand up for me at the ceremony.”

    Mr. Bennet nodded somberly. “Mr. Darcy, would you care to have the business done shortly as well?”

    Darcy was not quick enough to hide his bewilderment. “It is of no imp-port t-to me when Miss Bennet and my f-friend ch-chose to wed. I sh-should b-be happy to stand up for him any t-time.”

    “I meant,” he replied, with a faintly amused look, “when you and my daughter should like to marry.”

    For a moment both Elizabeth and Darcy could not speak. “Marry soon?” the former cried, forgetting herself and their interested audience. “What of the six months?”

    Her father appeared somewhat pained. “I see no reason to prolong this business.”

    “Oh!” Mrs. Bennet squealed. “What a fine thing, Lizzy! You shall not have to wait, for I have always said long engagements for young people never come to any good in the end – two more months is so far away...but oh! – why should you all not be married together? A double wedding! – Is that not a fine notion?”

    Oddly enough, the notion was a fine one, and it took only a moment for the rest of the family to agree. Bingley and Jane did not resent the loss of exclusive attention; what could be more natural for the dearest of sisters and two intimate friends than to marry on the same day? Darcy and Elizabeth, although initially unprepared for such an easy settlement, soon grew to favor the idea, for their own eagerness to wed seemed perfectly cast for this solution.

    Mr. Bennet did not provide his own opinion, and when everyone looked to him for his consent to the scheme, he only said that he would begin making the arrangements as soon as they settled upon a date. With that, he offered his brief congratulations to the four and left the dining parlor.

    Elizabeth, with some alarm, rose and hurried after her father; she found him in his library, just as he was settling back behind his desk to sort through a stack of papers. He glanced up once as she came in and turned back to his business, gesturing for her to sit.

    “I believe you are still displeased with me,” she said without preamble, “but I beg you would not hold Mr. Darcy to blame for what I said.”

    “Correct me if I am wrong,” replied he, with an edge of exasperation to his voice, “but I do think I have just given my assent for you to marry sooner than we had agreed. That does not much speak of resentment, Elizabeth.”

    “I suppose not,” she admitted. With disquieted eyes she watched him rise to stand in front of the window, his back turned to her. “But why? You were so fixed on having us wait a six-month.”

    For a moment she did not believe he would answer. “I have been thinking much on what you said to me.”

    “Papa, I am sorry...”

    “I am not soliciting an apology, child,” he interrupted. “Pray, do me the service of allowing me to finish. I am an old man, and I have neither the time nor any patience to spare for this constant circumvention. Now let me finish, if you please.”

    Elizabeth closed her mouth and waited.

    “Thank you. As I said, you cast me in the unenviable position of being an enemy to either my daughter or my own conscience, by delaying your marriage.” Before Elizabeth could dispute this, he raised one hand. “Please, let me finish. Taking on that role does not settle well with me, Lizzy. I did not know that you resented a long engagement so much.”

    “It was not the long engagement itself, Papa,” Elizabeth said softly. “It was that you did not restrict Jane and Bingley to one – only Mr. Darcy and I.”

    “I had not thought you prone to sisterly jealousies.”

    “You know that is not why. If Mr. Darcy were more like Mr. Bingley – if he were not deaf – you would have had no compunction in allowing us to marry within the normal period.”

    Mr. Bennet had little alternative but to accede to that truth. “Yes, but his deafness is not a small problem, child. You have seen for yourself how it is received by others.” He bent forward across the desk, appearing more serious than she had ever seen him. “Are you quite sure, Elizabeth, that you can bear this sort of estrangement? By aligning yourself with him, you put yourself in a position of equal danger. Can you respect him, can you trust him, enough to risk your good name and secure position? Do you believe that he can adequately protect you from such things as were perpetrated against him last month? You cannot change what he is.”

    “I have no wish to change what he is.” Elizabeth chose her words carefully, wanting above everything to make her father understand. “Some people look at Mr. Darcy and all they can see are the differences. They hear the oddity of his speech, not what he is saying. They see that he cannot hear, not that he can understand them despite it, that he can feel and think and act as everyone else can. He is...he is so much more than his limitations, Papa.

    “His deafness is a part of him, yes. I would be a fool to pretend otherwise...but do you not see? I don’t care for him in spite of his difficulties, but rather because they are a part of who he is. I have little doubt that, had he never been struck with that fever, he would have been a different man. Could I have loved that man too? I suppose I shall never know.

    “He is not a tragic hero – he is not always easy to love, or even to like – but he is still the best man I have ever known, and I do not say that lightly.”

    Mr. Bennet did not immediately reply, and Elizabeth, having said all that she possibly could, waited in quiet suspense.

    “Well, Lizzy,” he said at last, “I must give you credit for eloquence of argument, if nothing else. You appear to comprehend the man very well, and I daresay you are old enough to know what you are doing.”

    Hardly listening, she studied his expression for some indication that he understood, but she saw nothing to give her comfort.

    “Your implied criticism, by the by,” he continued, “has been acknowledged – I shall endeavor to be more than uncommonly civil. If you like, I may flatter and fawn over him as much as your mother does.”

    Elizabeth was tempted to observe that even Mrs. Bennet’s excessive and possibly insincere treatment of her future son was both kinder and more reasonable than his persistent disapprobation; but she did not say it, for stirring up more discord could only result in another argument and worsen her father’s opinion of her own judgment.

    “I will say no more to try and coerce you into anything else. I can see that it is a fruitless effort, and it ought not to have ever been attempted.”

    It was as near an apology as she was going to receive, and Elizabeth accepted it as graciously as was possible under the circumstances.

    “If that is all, you might as well rejoin our guests in the drawing room. Mr. Darcy will be wanting your company, I am sure.” He glanced over his shoulder and briskly waved one hand toward the door. “Go on, then.”

    She went to the threshold but hesitated there, turning round. “Thank you.”

    “Do not thank me,” he said quietly, his gaze fixed on the darkening sky. “A father wants everything best for his daughters; but you are a woman now, and you must make your own choices and your own mistakes.” He sighed and leaned against the window frame, looking suddenly both very old and very tired. “Uncertain I may be about the wisdom of your choice, Elizabeth, but I will not stand in the way of your happiness.”


    After their brief visit to Longbourn a week before, Mr. Breckenridge and his constable had not made any further contact with Mr. Darcy, whether it was out of disgust for his refusal to help or a simple need to divert their attention to where it could benefit their efforts most.

    It was a surprise then when Mrs. Hill again entered the parlor to tell the ladies that Mr. Cameron was waiting in the hallway to speak with the gentlemen. Mr. Bingley and Mr. Darcy were duly fetched from the gardens and the company of their respective fiancées, and were shown into the drawing room, where the constable awaited them.

    “Gentlemen,” he began, bowing politely as Bingley assisted his friend into a chair. “It is a pleasure to see you looking so well recovered.”

    “Thank you.” Bingley took a seat next to Darcy and invited the other man to sit as well. “May we assist you with something, Mr. Cameron?”

    The constable smiled. “Not this time, sir. Mr. Breckenridge sent me to tell you that there is no longer a need for identification of the three men we spoke to you about last time.”

    “No n-need? Have they c-confessed?”

    “Not exactly.” Mr. Cameron settled himself more comfortably on the settee, his round face alight with satisfaction. “One man confessed to his own involvement...as well as everyone else’s. Seems the poor lad didn’t have the stomach for crime. We hardly had to do anything; he only required a little coercion to spill out the entire story. Gave us all the names, he did.”

    Bingley and Darcy exchanged uncertain glances. “What will you do with them?” the former asked nervously, imagining three hangings at dawn or dismembered heads rolling about on the lawn in front of the gaol.

    “They’ll be shipped off to Newgate for deportation, I imagine,” the constable said cheerfully. “No need for a trial, since we have all the confessions. It won’t take much to have them sent off first thing next week.”

    Relieved that the penalty wouldn’t involve anything as ghastly as a public execution, Bingley released an indrawn breath. “Oh.”

    As if reading his thoughts, the constable chuckled. “Aye, they’ll not be strung up like they ought to be, but a ship bound for Australia will be punishment enough. I imagine they’ll wish they were dead by the time they arrive there.”

    This dire prediction did little to reassure Bingley. “How long will they stay there, if they are sent away?”

    “Seven years at least, and then they will be up for review. Provided they live that long, of course.”

    Darcy had kept silent throughout the men’s discussion, looking contemplative. “What of th-their families?”

    Mr. Cameron seemed taken aback by the question, as though the thought had never occurred to him. “I suppose they will have to do as anyone else in their position does: turn to relatives for assistance, or perhaps to the church. They will scrape out a living somehow. People will pity them and help – I very much doubt that anyone will starve for their folly.”

    “Mr. S-Simmons’s wife has a very young ch-child – little more th-than a b-baby, I th-think.”

    “Yes, well, Mary Ellen is a sensible sort of woman. She’ll manage tolerably well – indeed, I imagine she’ll be better off without that fool husband of hers. He misspent what little money he did earn as it was.”

    “D-Do any of the others have ch-children?”

    “None but Hattie Watt, and her sons are all grown and married. The other man isn’t married – he’s still a boy himself – and his mother has been under the protection of the church for some years now.

    “Out of the first group we arrested, four had wives,” Mr. Cameron paused, trying to remember the exact numbers, “and I believe that three had children. Those men have been deported for a few weeks already, though – if their widows needed help, Dr. Lawrence would have been alerted to it by now.”

    “Their widows?”

    The constable seemed amused by Bingley’s ignorance. “Aye, for their husbands are as good as dead to them. Even if they survive the prison colony, they can never return to Meryton for shame of it, and no decent woman would take them back if they did.”

    This sobering reflection was enough to quiet Bingley’s curiosity. The constable, recollecting the other item of business that had drawn him forth to Longbourn, promptly added, “Mr. Darcy, I had meant to inquire if Colonel Fitzwilliam is also available today.”

    “No, I am afraid he isn’t – my c-cousin is in London at p-present, attending to some b-business there.”

    “Bad luck, then. I had hoped he might be here; the lad gave us some other information which I thought might be useful to the colonel’s search. Well, perhaps it can wait until he returns to Hertfordshire. Have you any idea when that might be?”

    “What s-search?”

    Mr. Cameron looked at him queerly. “For Mr. Wickham. I understand the colonel has been trying to sniff him out for weeks. Hard to find anyone in London – it’s not too remarkable that he hasn’t found any sign of him yet.”

    Darcy’s eyes narrowed. “I s-see. And you were g-given information about Mr. W-Wickham’s whereabouts by this gentleman?”

    “Not exactly – the boy just confirmed that the lieutenant had been involved in the scheme. Mr. Wickham apparently did not participate in the attack itself, but he encouraged the men’s actions. The rumors are nothing new to you, I am sure, but Wickham had been spreading some highly unsavory things about you and Miss Darcy in the taproom.”

    “He spoke of my sister?” An angry flush rose up in Darcy’s cheeks.

    “And Miss Bennet, I believe. Supposedly he intimated that you had somehow forced her into an engagement and had a past history of...” Mr. Cameron broke off upon seeing the young man’s expression. “Well, perhaps that is best left unsaid. In any case, he certainly instigated the assault.”

    “Mr. W-Wickham fled t-to London?”

    “He was traced as far as the outskirts of the city. I believe Colonel Fitzwilliam made contact with your sister’s companion, but she disappeared as well before he could obtain Wickham’s direction.”

    “And so my c-cousin has b-been looking f-for him all th-these weeks.”

    “Yes, of course.”

    Darcy’s frown deepened; Mr. Cameron, somewhat confused, decided that the interview had better come to a conclusion, and he rose. “Well, gentlemen, I hope this has put your minds at ease.”

    “Yes, it has,” Bingley said, when Darcy did not immediately answer. “Thank you for taking the trouble to inform us, Mr. Cameron.”

    Darcy shook himself from his contemplations long enough to second the thanks and shake the constable’s hand. Mr. Cameron, content in having done his duty, left in good spirits, leaving the two men to mull over this startling development.

    Bingley, not one for lingering in gloomy reflection, wished for Jane’s steadying company, and suggested that they might return to the garden and more amiable company. Expecting Darcy to follow, he went all the way out the door before realizing that his friend was not behind him.

    Darcy, left alone in the room, walked slowly over to the escritoire, easing himself down into the chair and wincing a little at the pull of tense muscles. After drawing out a crisp sheet of parchment, he set to sharpening one of the quills.

    Bingley poked his head around the doorjamb. “Darcy?”

    “G-Go on without me,” he said grimly, flipping open the inkpot, “and k-kindly t-tell Elizabeth I will rejoin her as s-soon as I c-can – I have a l-letter to write first.”


    Chapter Forty

    Posted on Friday, 20 June 2008

    A man of four-and-thirty, of independent means and no small measure of societal distinction if not fortune, must always find displeasure in being scolded in a manner more fitting for one half his age.

    With a mumbled curse, Colonel Fitzwilliam crumpled up a composedly-phrased but caustic letter that had arrived in the post from his cousin; and without a second glance, he tossed it into the lit fireplace. Now was not the time for Darcy to father him in this humiliating manner – he was perfectly aware of the peril involved in tracking Wickham and in the possibility of only frightening the man into deeper hiding. Darcy need not have troubled himself to write, for the colonel had no intention of heeding his cousin’s plea to return to Hertfordshire.

    His frustration had mounted daily as Wickham continued to elude him. No amount of effort, no trick or stratagem, seemed to draw the scoundrel out of his concealment. It was now confirmed that Wickham was lodging somewhere in London, but the report shed little light on where exactly that might be – it could be anywhere from St. Giles to one of the respectable houses in the West End, for Wickham probably had a few friends in higher circles who might be willing to house him.

    It was unbearably frustrating and seemed done as if by design – every time the colonel gained a new hint, Wickham appeared to slip away just before he could close in; if he were not a more sensible person, the colonel might have supposed that the lieutenant was deliberately antagonizing him.

    He still harbored a measure of guilt for the damage he had – however unconsciously – done in spurring Wickham into panicked action, and he would go to the devil before capitulating. Darcy would have to be patently ignored for the present; Fitzwilliam knew he was close, and he was certainly not going to turn tail now, no matter how his cousin might protest.

    There was some small amount of satisfaction to be had, however. Mr. Breckenridge had sent him a short note, detailing the successful arrests of the three men remaining in custody, as well as their revelations about Wickham’s involvement.

    Reading over the short list of charges that – according to the gentlemen – Wickham had brought against Darcy, Fitzwilliam had been struck with a fresh determination to see the man deported or dead, preferably the latter. The accusations were wild and inflammatory, with just enough truth to them to have the potency to convince.

    It was a sickening array, but somehow not surprising. A few of the accusations, at least, were unpleasantly familiar: Wickham could hardly be credited with originality. The usual slander – insanity, violent tendencies, perversion, savagery, and even a subtle intimation toward incest – had been put in his arsenal for use; and those village men had listened and believed every ignorant word.

    The colonel hoped that Mr. Breckenridge had not disclosed the full description of Wickham’s aspersions to Darcy, for a good many of them would certainly send his cousin into a rage of indignation. There were some particularly sordid tales involving Georgiana and her brother, as well as Miss Bennet, that were shocking even to a man of Fitzwilliam’s experience, and he could only imagine how others would react to them. Although Darcy had become, over the years, tolerant of abuse toward himself, he didn’t countenance abuse of those he cared for – in no way would he hear of these defamatory rumors with equanimity.

    After briefly stating these facts, the magistrate had revealed what the colonel had most wanted to know: the confession had provided them also with proof that Wickham had been in the thick of the tumult. It had been an unnecessary reassurance, but there was no harm in having his own convictions about Wickham’s guilt confirmed. It surprised him little to learn as well that Wickham had not participated in the assault itself. The man was a coward – he might stir emotion, he might whisper and suggest and insinuate, but he would never endanger himself with action to suit his words.

    Fitzwilliam sighed and took up post in front of the fire, watching the letter blacken and crumble into ashes. He wished that his own concerns could be eliminated so easily. The strain of the hunt was beginning to wear even on him. Four weeks – four weeks and still no trace of George Wickham or Mrs. Younge. He had never felt himself capable of being a failure, but it appeared he was doomed to become one if something did not change soon.

    For a moment he almost envied his cousin, odd as that seemed. In his message, Darcy had also condescended to inform him that his wedding to Miss Bennet had been arranged to take place, in a double ceremony with Miss Jane Bennet and Bingley, on the twenty-third of August, a scant three weeks away.

    It was happy news, astounding in itself. That Miss Bennet’s father had sanctioned the match – even after all this – was, to Fitzwilliam’s mind, somewhat incredible. Although the colonel would never have mentioned such a thing to his cousin nor been unsympathetic had it come to pass, he had prepared for – if not expected – news of a broken engagement.

    Yet instead these cheerful tidings were delivered; and Fitzwilliam, with no great opinion of the constancy of women, was impressed anew by Miss Bennet’s fortitude. It was ironic and yet very fitting that Darcy, who had scarcely come into contact with the fair sex during his lifetime, should find with a minimum of effort such a superior woman; while he, the consummate gallant, had passed three decades without discovering even a one to please his every ideal. Caroline Bingley he dared not think of – he might find her pleasing and she might continue to welcome his addresses, but he knew very well how it would all end.

    Of course no romance, star-crossed or not, could be carried through anytime soon, for he was at present still stationed in a lonely inn just between the East and West sides of London, sleeping on a decrepit bed and eating a steady regimen of mediocre dinners. Occasionally he thought with longing of his comfortable apartments at Matlock House, but he could not stay there. His parents and siblings would pester him relentlessly about his business and demand to know everything about his frequent departures and forays into the seedier sector of Town – and, Lord help him, he would probably tell them everything.

    His father had no talent for interrogation, but his mother....he shuddered to think of it. Lady Matlock would have been an excellent Bow Street Runner, had her station and gender allowed for it. She used the most unprepossessing and cunning methods to wrangle information from even the most close-lipped person: employing benign conversation to ensure that her victim was very cozily settled and at ease, she would then ply them with tea and sweets, gently and gradually urging them to provide more and more of the conversation, subtly encouraging and questioning, until every last secret was spilled.

    No, the colonel most certainly didn’t want to give his mother this advantage. His parents ought not to be burdened with the full knowledge of the infamy involved, and he could not in good conscience allow them to discover what should be known by as few as possible. And so, he was left to his own devices and the indifferent service of the posting inn.

    Still, he paid a call every few days to ensure that the family was not offended by his neglect. Despite his efforts to be punctual, he had not been there for nearly a week, and, since he had nothing else to occupy his time on this particular afternoon, he supposed he might as well visit and have it done.

    The services of a tatty curricle were soon engaged, and Fitzwilliam drove to the grand house at Grosvenor Square. The traffic was thick, but once he turned onto the appropriate street, it was to find it surprisingly deserted.

    The house was equally still, and pulling up, he entrusted the curricle into the hands of the waiting groom and quickly mounted the stairs. A forceful knock on the door summoned Cuthbert, whose dignified face showed something of mild surprise to see the gentleman on the portico. “Sir?”

    “Good afternoon, Cuthbert.” Colonel Fitzwilliam peered over the butler’s shoulder to see that the entrance hall was empty. “Are my parents away today?”

    “You could say that, sir.” He bowed. “Shall you come in?”

    “No, not if they’re not here. Do you know when they are expected at home?”

    “In a week, I should think.” Seeing the colonel’s dumbfounded expression, the butler clarified. “His Lordship and Her Ladyship, Lord Grasham, and Lady Sophia departed for Hertfordshire this morning, sir.”

    “Hertfordshire, you say? By god! – did they leave any notice at all?” An abhorrent thought struck him, and he groaned. “They did manage to send Darcy word first, didn’t they?”

    “I wouldn’t know, sir – but His Lordship left a note to be delivered to you. I just sent it by this morning’s post; we did not know you were to call today, or I certainly would have kept it here for you.”

    “Never mind that, Cuthbert.” He sighed. “On second thought, I think I would like to stay here for a bit to....contemplate things. Bring some coffee, please.”

    “Very good, sir.” With a regal tip of his head, Cuthbert went to fetch the tray, leaving Fitzwilliam to find his own way to the parlor.

    Settling down on a chaise-longue, the colonel gazed around the deserted room, which had already been fitted in dust-covers in preparation for a fairly long absence. Mercy, what had his parents been thinking? A wild dash to Hertfordshire was hardly his father’s style; Lord Matlock was generally more inclined to plan any journey, even so trifling a one, weeks in advance to make ready for any eventuality.

    And what would Darcy – and the Bennets, for that matter – think of this invasion of relatives? Darcy had made it clear before that there was no need for the family to attend him after his injury, although Lady Matlock and Edmund had most particularly wished to assure themselves that Darcy was on the mend. Aware that they would determine upon a visit, the colonel had given his cousin fair warning of the danger, and the Darcys had acted accordingly.

    It had been gently suggested that the arrival of any relations, when the Bennet family was already so overburdened, would be more an inconvenience than a comfort; and the Matlocks, being more than uncommonly discreet themselves, heeded the warning and remained in Town. For the past month they had had to be content with weekly accounts from Georgiana and – when he was feeling better – Darcy himself.

    But now, it appeared that the Matlocks’ patience was gone. The colonel could only hope that they had been good enough to send Darcy word of their coming before they besieged Meryton and its residents.

    Cuthbert came in then, putting an end to these distasteful thoughts. Setting the coffee and a small tray of biscuits on the table, he looked over at Fitzwilliam inquiringly. “Anything else, sir?”

    “No, thank you.” Fitzwilliam reached for a biscuit and then paused. “Wait...did you say that only my brother and sister accompanied my parents?”

    The butler nodded.

    “Then where are the viscountess and the girls? For that matter, where is my aunt?”

    “Lady Beatrice is in Cornwall, sir, and Lady Grasham and the Miss Fitzwilliams are at Hollowswood at present.”

    “Oh.” The colonel glanced down at the biscuit in his hand and set it back down, coming to his feet. “Thank you, Cuthbert, but I had better go.”

    “Sir?”

    Fitzwilliam buttoned his greatcoat and paused in the doorway, turning round to offer a slight smile to the butler. “I suppose I should be away to Hertfordshire, seeing that everyone else finds it such a worthy destination.”

    Cuthbert bowed. “As you say, sir.”


    The instant the date for the wedding had been set, preparations for the ceremony began in earnest. Mrs. Bennet was determined that her daughters’ most advantageous marriages would be the grandest occasions to grace Meryton society in a quarter-century.

    Everything must be perfect: the wedding breakfast must be much larger and more plentiful, flowers must be brought in from the London hothouses, a plethora of gowns and accessories must be got from the warehouse....it was enough to make even a woman with a good constitution jittery, and Mrs. Bennet spent all her days torn between restless energy and nervous flutterings that left her helplessly confined to her bed.

    Mr. Bennet took all the bustle and expense with surprisingly good humor; the steadying company of the Gardiners, who had returned from Town to assist their nieces with the wedding details, helped keep the house in some semblance of order, and as long as the disruptions stayed well away from his library, he appeared content enough to provide the funds and let the women arrange the matter to their satisfaction.

    It was a hasty business, but the invitations were again sent out, the church was notified, the banns were posted, licenses procured, and deliveries of fabric, food, and other celebratory trappings were ordered. Elizabeth and Jane found themselves with astoundingly little to do themselves – what actual business that needed to be done was taken care of by the Gardiners or their father – but they still were kept very busy during the day, employed mainly as attendants to Mrs. Bennet’s fits and anxieties.

    Often an entire day went by in which they spent nearly every minute above-stairs seeing to some matter that their mother urgently needed finished. It was difficult to get away at all, for Elizabeth no longer had her nursing duties to qualify as an excuse: Darcy had returned to Netherfield the day after the wedding date had been finalized.

    According to him, the journey by carriage had not been overly uncomfortable; he had managed the move well, and it appeared that his mobility had been, for the most part, completely restored. It was welcome news, for Elizabeth knew how much the confinement had been chafing at him. The only discouragement in the business was that he was still not allowed to ride – the physician warned him that he would have to wait another month at least before participating in the risky exercise.

    It seemed odd, the first few days, not to have Darcy in the house, for she had grown accustomed to his constant presence. He and Bingley still paid a visit at Longbourn every morning, but of late even that time together had been rushed and brief, as Mrs. Bennet could not go long without attendance. In a few instances, Elizabeth went a whole day without seeing Darcy once; but then, he was occupied with business of his own.

    The matter of a dowry, as well as Elizabeth’s rights and privileges as Mrs. Darcy, were discussed between her affianced and her father during several brief sessions in Longbourn’s study. Elizabeth knew that what she would bring to her marriage was far from equal to what she would gain by it, but she had not realized how very great the difference was until she was called in one afternoon to sign the necessary papers.

    Darcy had appeared ill at ease, perhaps even fairly embarrassed by the frank accounting of his total worth, which, with the addition of a fruitful estate in Scotland, amounted to nearly twelve thousand, rather than the suspected ten, per year. Elizabeth was amazed by the sum and felt something close to mortification herself when her father offered Darcy the fifty pounds per annum that her dowry allotted.

    She knew there was rationally nothing of which to be ashamed, but when the scanty amount was compared to the generous allowance Darcy had insisted upon granting her, she could not ignore the discrepancy. It would be a vastly different lifestyle from the one she knew now; Darcy was no spendthrift, but it would still be strange indeed to know that she and her husband need not count every shilling so carefully as she was accustomed to.

    Her father seemed amused by her obvious discomfiture as well as the gentleman’s, but he did not tease them. The papers were explained and signed, and that was that. There was something very crass in the naming of her worth and Darcy’s in terms of pounds and pennies; and she was relieved when the discussion came to an end.

    Her mother, of course, had no such ill feelings. Mr. Darcy’s wealth was something of which she was always aware and wished for others to know as well. Elizabeth thought perhaps that it ought to have been anticipated; spurred on by continued discourse with Mr. Darcy and a new understanding of his fortune, Mrs. Bennet’s previous disapprobation was now rivaled by the vehemence of her approval.

    This, added to the constant activity, the amount of wedding particulars to be seen to, and the uncertainty of her father’s opinion left Elizabeth feeling more than a little overwhelmed. There were not many options for the relief of this growing tension, but such an opportunity presented itself one morning, while Mrs. Bennet – exhausted by the previous day’s round of fittings – slept late. There was enough time to escape the confines of Longbourn, and although the excursion would cost her when her mother discovered her absence, Elizabeth set off directly for Netherfield.

    The three mile walk was a pleasant one, which was best enjoyed at a leisurely pace. The air, brisk but warm with just a bite of autumn chill, was fresh and invigorating, and she scolded herself for not having left the house sooner. Her mother might whine and rage, but really, what harm could that do? She ought to be allowed some privacy in her last weeks as a Miss Bennet.

    This change in her status and name had been much on her mind – regrets there were not, yet there was something oddly disquieting and exhilarating in the prospect of marriage. It was so very momentous, so irrevokable and sacred, that there was ample reason for uncertainty, excitement, and perhaps some small part of fear.

    It was not a fear of him – no, she knew enough of his kind and generous nature to have the firmest confidence in his inability to harm another soul, particularly one he valued so much as she. Rather, it was simply the change, the unfamiliarity of it all, that concerned her even as she eagerly awaited her wedding day.

    The walk did not take long; and soon she was on the drive up to Netherfield, the gravel crunching beneath her half-boots. As she neared the house, she saw a lone figure moving slowly across the lawn along the bordering hedge. It took barely a moment to recognize Darcy, and Elizabeth waved as he turned and saw her.

    She was now close enough to see his smile, and she quickened her steps to meet him. A kiss seemed the proper greeting, and when he finally pulled back, she was surprised to see him looking so serious.

    “I had b-been hoping t-to see you,” he said softly, taking her hand, “b-but I thought your mother said that you were t-to be in the village today.”

    “I was.” She laughed. “I suspect Mama will be very put out to discover that I left without her express consent.”

    He was quiet for a moment. “I am g-glad you did.”

    “Fitzwilliam?”

    Appearing to recollect himself, he held her hand tighter and tugged gently, drawing her along with him as he moved forward. They walked a short distance in silence until he paused by the field fencing.

    “I want t-to talk t-to you, Elizabeth.”

    “You have my permission,” she replied smilingly, “but if you have a good deal to say, I should like to make myself comfortable, for I know how you do like to go on.”

    Despite himself, he chuckled. “Insolent girl.” His hands moved to span about her waist, and with one fluid motion, he lifted her up and onto the first rung of the stile. She smoothed her skirts and looked over at him expectantly. “You may begin, sir.”

    Darcy paused, walking a few feet away, his back turned, while he considered how best to start. “It is not so simple as you th-think,” he said after a moment. “Pray b-be patient with me; I hardly know how t-to start.”

    Because he did appear so uneasy, she did not tease him. In short order, he turned about again and returned to her side. “I have b-been thinking, of late, about wh-what you said – about how I have not b-been open with you. You were right; I c-can only imagine how you must have interpreted my s-silence. I have b-been very selfish.”

    Elizabeth immediately objected, but he again begged her to listen without interrupting. “P-Please, it is hard enough as it is.”

    She nodded reluctantly, and he went on. “Th-There are many things I ought to have t-told you, b-but perhaps I should start at the b-beginning. I have had the opportunity t-to know your family and learn about everything you have d-done and seen, everything of your life b-before I knew you.” He hesitated. “I have t-told you nothing of myself.”

    Since he seemed to be waiting for some sort of reply, she felt it safe to venture, “I didn’t mean to say it so cruelly as I did, but yes, I have wanted to know all this. I don’t know whether you think my constitution incapable of bearing the knowledge of what has happened to you before, but I think you have underestimated me at times.”

    “P-Perhaps I have, and I am sorry for it.” Darcy smiled at her. “You have b-borne more from me th-than any woman ought to.”

    “It would scarcely be fair to say that I am the only one of us who has had to endure these trials; but since you have apologized so handsomely for it, I will think of that unpleasantness no more.”

    “Yes, well...” He cleared his throat, shifting back to rest his arm against the fence post. “I th-thought you might wish now, b-before the wedding, t-to know something of the man you are t-to marry.”

    “I know the essentials, and that is all that is truly necessary – but I should love to know more, since you are so obliging this morning.”

    He coughed. “I b-believe Georgiana has already t-told you of the fever.”

    “She did; she mentioned your schooling in London too, and Mr. Kelley.”

    “B-But not our parents, I suppose.”

    “No, not at all.”

    “I d-didn’t think so. I sh-should be very much surprised if Georgiana remembers our father well, and she never knew our mother at all: she died from ch-childbed fevers a few d-days after Georgiana was b-born.”

    “So early? How dreadful for your father – and for you.”

    “I d-doubt very much that he let himself g-grieve for long.”

    Elizabeth’s eyes widened. “But I thought...you will pardon me, please...I had thought – from things Georgiana mentioned – that your parents were fond of each other.”

    “Th-they were once,” he murmured. “My mother always loved him, and I b-believe he c-cared for her too – at first. His was not the sort of love which c-could withstand adversity. They were very happy, at least before...” He hesitated, and there was a world of meaning in those quick breathless seconds. “...before I b-became ill.”

    “Surely not....”

    “I w-was the heir, Elizab-beth – I was my father’s heir, and I w-was an idiot. Imagine his h-horror, and my mother’s! I had b-been a healthy ch-child b-before the fever, and they had great hopes, great ambitions for me. Everything was p-perfectly settled, and th-then it all c-came to an end once the truth was d-discovered. It was the end of their p-plans, and of whatever happiness they had t-together.

    “He b-blamed her, you see – b-because she was supposed t-t-to oversee the nursemaid’s activities, he b-believed that she was negligent and allowed the signs of illness t-to slip p-past without detection.”

    Elizabeth exclaimed at this. “How could he possibly say that it was your mother’s fault? It was an accident! She had no way to know that the maid had contracted the fever, nor that you would catch it.”

    He smiled crookedly. “Angry p-people are not always wise. He could not look p-past her guilt, and she b-blamed him in t-turn for hiring the g-girl at all. I b-believe she sometimes hated herself for c-continuing to love him, even when his own feelings had s-sunk into indifference. Th-they were very unhappy t-together.”

    Elizabeth was much affected by this unexpected story, and comparisons between his parents and her own were inevitable. Her parents’ marriage had possibly been destined to fail from the beginning, formed as it was on such an incompatibility of character; but for the Darcys it was doubly tragic and perhaps all the more reprehensible, for they had allowed outside sources to ruin what they had, when such a difficulty ought to have drawn them closer. “Was it very apparent to you, even as a boy?”

    “I s-saw too much – I knew t-too much to be oblivious.” He sighed. “I d-doubt they spoke beyond what was required t-to keep up appearances around the servants. B-But my father – it was so odd....” He stopped, seeming uncertain whether to continue. “There was a neighbor of ours, a w-widow, whom he b-became...involved.... with, and he m-made little attempt t-to k-keep it from her, or f-from anyone else. I don’t th-think he was d-deliberately trying to hurt her, but he d-did all the same.” He swallowed. “Once....once, h-he made arrangements t-to leave for London – his mistress was t-to stay with him in the t-townhouse and b-be his c-companion for the week. They m-meant t-to have a gay t-time of it, and he left P-Pemberley to meet her in London.

    “I r-remember, Elizabeth – I remember watching him leave in the c-carriage, and then s-seeing Mother standing on the s-steps, watching t-too.” His expression hardened. “She was w-weeping.”

    Elizabeth held her breath, waiting. There was no anger in his face, only the weariness of a man who had dwelled long on these distasteful memories. “I h-hated him then. Lord help me, Elizabeth, b-but I hated him f-for hurting her. I h-hated him for p-pushing all the b-blame on her when she had d-done nothing t-to deserve his censure. I h-hated him for...” He fell silent.

    “For what?” she asked gently.

    He shook his head helplessly, and her heart constricted. Moved by tenderness, she put her hands to his shoulders invitingly, and he accepted the embrace; since she was perched high on the stile, they were face-to-face, and it seemed natural for him to lean forward and claim a kiss.

    They remained there for several minutes, bent awkwardly against the fence while she sifted her hands idly through his hair and waited for the next revelation. Finally he spoke again. “I am not my father’s only s-son, Elizabeth.”

    The movement of her hands ceased. “Pardon?”

    “Th-there was an affaire, about a year after my....my illness. P-Pemberley had an excellent st-steward, who was a very respectable man – very k-kind and good-natured, and he was a p-particular friend of my father’s. His wife was some years younger th-than he and of a flighty temperament, b-but she was very handsome, and my f-father always had a w-weakness for handsome women.”

    My father was old Mr. Darcy’s steward...The smooth, charming voice intruded abruptly on Elizabeth’s thoughts, and she gasped aloud. “No, no, not...not him?”

    “Mrs. W-Wickham was c-conveniently married. Th-there was no reason t-to d-doubt the child’s parentage. Old Mr. Wickham certainly never felt a moment’s s-suspicion.”

    “I cannot believe it,” she said, amazed and scandalized. “Your own brother...how could he do such a thing? Does he know?”

    Darcy nodded. “My father c-confessed to it after the steward’s death, and my mother knew as w-well; W-Wickham was left with a s-sizable b-bequest.”

    “That is what he meant, then! Mr. Wickham once told me that you and he had a dispute about money. Did he want more than the bequest?”

    “You s-seem to understand him well,” he said, a little hint of amusement in his voice. “He approached me after the f-funeral and insisted th-that I owed him more money – that he was my b-brother, after all, and I sh-should s-see t-to his comfort.”

    “And you refused.”

    “Of c-course. It was already a generous b-bequest: t-twenty th-thousand pounds.”

    “Twenty thousand!”

    “P-perhaps my father meant to t-try and ease his guilt b-before he d-died. In any c-case, Wickham soon gambled away the wh-whole of it and wanted more. I s-sent him away.” A faint look of regret overtook his countenance. “It might have b-been b-better if I had indulged him; maybe he would have wh-whiled away the r-rest of his life in solitary d-debauchery and left Georgiana and I alone.”

    “What did he do? What could you have done to make him want to hurt you?”

    “I inherited P-Pemberley,” he said shortly. “He hates me b-because I am my father’s heir and he is not. W-Wickham is a jealous and p-possessive man, Elizabeth. He c-could never b-bear to be second best t-t-to me.

    “T-try to th-think of it from his p-perspective: he is just as much my father’s son, albeit illegitimate, b-but he had to t-take a p-profession and live wh-where his regiment t-took him. It was c-cruel, in a way, of my father to let him st-stay on at P-Pemberley. He grew accustomed to luxury, and b-because Father was fond of him, he c-came to b-believe he d-deserved the family fortune more than I d-did. After all, wh-what was I b-but a deaf half-wit, who c-couldn’t speak without d-difficulty and had lived away from the estate? He had sp-pent so much of his t-time acting lord of the manor that he c-could not b-bear t-to face his own insignificance when I t-took control.”

    Darcy’s face was drawn with tension, and Elizabeth placed a calming hand on his arm. “Tell me, Fitzwilliam.”

    Her loving address seemed to quiet some of his inner turmoil, and he kissed her hand gratefully before continuing the sordid tale. “Last summer, W-Wickham intruded on our lives in a most unp-pleasant manner. I do not wish to sp-speak of all that occurred, Elizabeth, if you will grant me that liberty – it is not th-that I d-do not want you t-to know, b-but I simply c-cannot find the words to t-tell you everything t-today. In t-time you shall know all.”

    She nodded her acceptance.

    “T-to state it simply, W-Wickham attempted to do wh-what he successfully d-did in Hertfordshire.”

    Elizabeth’s stomach twisted. “He accused you of madness?”

    “He t-tried to have me legally removed from c-control of the estate and p-put in an institution on c-claims of unpredictability and d-dangerous conduct. He had c-convinced a rather unscrupulous b-barrister to f-file the ch-charges, fully expecting the local magistrate to s-side with him, as I had been absent frequently from D-Derbyshire t-to attend to my schooling in London. W-Wickham b-believed th-that his word would be held above mine.”

    “What could he hope to accomplish?” she cried. “Even if you were taken away, his... questionable...birth would have prevented him from inheriting the estate.”

    “He th-thought – wrongly, I might add – that my sister would inherit d-directly if I were to b-be institutionalized. As s-soon as I was locked away, he would arrive on P-Pemberley’s doorstep to p-play the p-part of the sympathetic and concerned suitor.” He smiled sardonically. “W-Wickham assumed t-too much about my sister’s character; she would not fall p-prey to his lies. Ch-charm in a man raises all her suspicions.

    “He th-thought it would b-be an easy conquest, and he would marry her, gaining control of P-Pemberley, its lands, and fortune b-by extension.”

    Elizabeth stared at him, appalled. “But Georgiana....she is his sister!”

    “Half-sister,” he said grimly. “And yes, he knew, but it was of no c-consequence to him so long as he c-could have the money. If he c-could not get P-Pemberley through his own b-birthright, he would d-do it through her.”

    She felt sick. It was unthinkable, disgusting – her stomach roiled at the very thought that the man who had at one time been welcomed into their home and eaten at their table, who had made pleasant conversation and flirted with her and her sisters, could be so depraved, so lost to common decency....

    “Fortunately, it never c-came to th-that,” he said. “The magistrate sp-spoke with me at length, and I t-told him about W-Wickham’s c-connection with my family. C-Considering the incentive Wickham had to want me out of the way, he d-dismissed the accusations. He t-told the barrister to dismiss the charges under th-threat of being d-disbarred, and W-Wickham was forced to flee D-Derbyshire again.”

    “I cannot believe it,” Elizabeth said numbly. “I cannot believe that he could be so...so... revolting! How can he live with himself?” She paused. “But I still do not understand one thing, Fitzwilliam. What could he hope to accomplish by this business in Hertfordshire? What could he gain now by harming you? Surely he did not think Georgiana would ever trust him again.”

    “That is what t-troubles me,” he admitted. “I have th-thought it over many t-times, but I am no closer to understanding why myself.”

    “I don’t even know why he should have disliked you so. If your father...if your father was not....kind to you, I cannot see why Wickham should have any reason to resent you.”

    “He was not unkind t-to me, Elizabeth. It was....c-complicated.”

    She waited expectantly, watching the emotions chasing one after another across his face.

    “I’m fairly c-convinced my father loved me, in his own way – I was his son, d-deaf or not.” He chuckled humorlessly. “He would have k-killed the man who c-called me simpleminded, but p-privately I th-think he believed I really was. I was so d-different from him, you see, and not just because of my d-deafness. He loved society, loved hosting b-balls and soirees and d-dinner parties; he th-thrived on such d-displays. Everyone always p-praised him for his amiable t-temper, his willingness t-to p-please, his charm.

    “I was not like him, Elizabeth. You know me. I would rather t-take up a b-book or go for a ride th-than attend an assembly. I inherited my mother’s d-disposition – quiet and reserved, not t-too fond of c-company b-besides that of my intimates. He c-could not understand me any more th-than he understood her; he th-thought me st-strange for st-staying in the library while other b-boys my age were off p-playing and making mischief.” Darcy paused and smiled. “He even s-sent for Richard one summer, in the hopes th-that I might b-be influenced b-by him. The p-plan rather b-backfired, for I somehow managed to g-get Richard interested in g-geography instead – I b-believe it’s the only th-thing besides soldiering and l-ladies th-that he’s ever b-been passionate about.”

    Elizabeth laughed. “I cannot imagine your cousin pouring over maps like an old scholar.”

    “My c-cousin’s interests are surprisingly b-broad. I th-think sometimes he simply prefers t-to appear the careless swain.” He looked down at his boots. “In any case, Elizabeth, it ended as b-badly as it had b-begun. I never really made p-peace with my father – I was not with him wh-when he d-died. He was away in P-Paris when it happened; a sudden seizure t-took him before a physician c-could be called.”

    She waited until he glanced back up. “How old were you?”

    “Three-and-twenty; Georgiana was only t-twelve.” He folded his hands. “I used to th-think on these things far t-too much. I was angry at first, b-but then I d-did the worst thing I could have d-done: I p-pitied myself. I was b-bitter and resentful and selfish b-before I met you. I c-cannot say that th-these faults are gone, Elizabeth, or that they will not resurface on occasion, b-but they are certainly under better c-control.”

    “I am not afraid of them – you don’t need to feel as though you cannot ever disappoint me,” she said, “for I am bound to disappoint you at times. I don’t want you to be perfect. I want you to be you.”

    “I am afraid th-there is no escaping th-that.” He kissed her. “Th-Thank you for listening.”

    “And I thank you for talking.” Eyeing him speculatively and with no little amount of mischief, she linked her arms about his neck and smiled. “There is a time for listening and a time for talking – and a time for other forms of communication. Shall we?”

    He laughed and drew her close. “With p-pleasure.”


    Chapter Forty-One

    Posted on: 2008-06-27

    Although there were many matters to fill her time and her thoughts, Elizabeth found it difficult to keep from dwelling on the tale she had been told. Mr. Wickham’s infamy was as shocking as it was repellent, and she didn’t torment herself by contemplating his past actions; rather, her mind was fixed upon why the man had gambled life and limb in order to exact revenge upon a man who had never really done him wrong.

    It seemed so utterly strange, so nonsensical – hardly the action of a rational man. In truth, the entire scheme with Georgiana and the inheritance was also fractured and unreasonable; it could have failed in a hundred instances, while the risk had been much greater than the worth even of Pemberley’s accounts. What could the man think to accomplish? It did not seem the product of an ordered mind, and that alarmed her more than anything else in the business.

    Her suspicions had been confirmed, through Georgiana, that the colonel’s business in London involved the capture of Wickham. Although her new sister had been purposefully vague, Elizabeth had easily concluded that Colonel Fitzwilliam was still conducting a search for the perpetrator. It was decidedly unchristian of her, but she wished the colonel godspeed – she wanted nothing more than to see Wickham locked away for the rest of his life, or banished far across the sea on a prison ship.

    In any case, she resolved to put it from her thoughts as best she could; there were far more pleasant matters to contemplate, and with her wedding fast approaching, there was much for her to accomplish.

    The Gardiners proved to be a great help, even with the addition of their four children to the general chaos at Longbourn. Mrs. Gardiner provided a much-needed source of serenity and comfort to Mrs. Bennet and her nieces, while Mr. Gardiner lent his own business expertise to the rather more glamorous field of wedding arrangements. But a fortnight remained until the settled date, and despite Mrs. Bennet’s concerns, everything soon fell into place.

    Meryton itself, which had been so lately set upon its side by the shocking events of the previous month and the arrests of nine of its citizens, seemed to recover something of its usual bustle; the news of the Bennet sisters’ wedding had traveled speedily and became the favorite topic during morning rounds and afternoon teas all across the village. It met with mingled reactions: some pitied Elizabeth, others wished her happiness, and still more could not yet decide whether Pemberley was compensation enough for the unfortunate nature of its master.

    Elizabeth had finally become inured to the gossip; and after the shameful events of the past month, her mother had managed to summon forth some untapped reserve of discretion in order to remain silent on the subjects of the assault and deportations. So, the rumors were not unduly disrupting – Elizabeth supposed she ought to be grateful that news of the men’s infamy had succeeded in undoing some of the stains upon her future husband’s character. It mattered not whether he was welcomed whole-heartedly among her neighbors; it would be pleasant, certainly, in the event of visits after their marriage, but she could hardly expect the world to change over the course of a single month.

    Congratulations soon flowed in from all directions. Despite the express disapproval of her husband, Charlotte Collins had written a lengthy note, complimenting her friend on the excellence of her match and passing on her hopes for Elizabeth’s future happiness.

    Unfortunately, her present situation – a current indisposition resulting from the happiest of circumstances – prevented her from attending the wedding, but she thanked Elizabeth for the courtesy and promised to visit when matters calmed a little more. The news that Charlotte was to have a child was unexpected, and somewhat disturbing to contemplate, but Elizabeth was glad for her friend’s sake. Charlotte ought to have somebody to love; and a child would fill that position very nicely.

    Lady Catherine’s displeasure was apparently of such a nature as made daily life at Rosings a misery. She had taken to ranting again on the subject of her derelict nephew and his deceitful paramour – she had threatened to write to refuse her consent once more and make her disapprobation known everywhere. Mr. Collins, unable to assuage his patroness’s discontent, made his own effort at reconciliation as well as he could, sending Mr. Bennet a long epistle detailing the disadvantages of a union between Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy.

    Mr. Bennet was sufficiently resigned to the marriage to be able to find amusement in the warning, and he called his daughter in to share in the diversion.

    “Lizzy,” said he, catching her in the hall after breakfast as she was returning to her room one morning, “I was going to look for you. Come into the library.”

    She went with him thither, and her curiosity to know what he had to tell her was heightened by the supposition of its being in some manner connected with the letter he held. It suddenly struck her, after recollecting Charlotte’s message, that it might be from Lady Catherine; and she anticipated with dismay all the consequent explanations, should the woman have had the insolence to address her father directly.

    She followed Mr. Bennet to the fireplace, and they both sat down. He then said, “I have received a letter this morning that has astonished me exceedingly. As it principally concerns yourself, you ought to know its contents.”

    The color now rushed into Elizabeth’s cheeks in the instantaneous conviction of its being a letter from the old lady herself; and she was undetermined whether to be most distressed that her father had been subjected to the offense that such a missive was certain to include, or alarmed that the letter was not rather addressed to herself, when her father continued:

    “You look ill at ease, my dear. Young ladies have great insight in such matters as these; but I think I may defy even your sagacity to discover the source of this delight. This letter is from Mr. Collins.”

    “From Mr. Collins! And what can he have to say?”

    “Something very much to the purpose, of course. He begins with congratulations on the approaching nuptials of my eldest daughter, of which, it seems, he had been told by some of the good-natured, gossiping Lucases. I shall not sport with your impatience by reading what he says on that point. What relates to yourself is as follows:

    ‘Having thus offered you the sincere congratulations of Mrs. Collins and myself on this happy event, let me now add a short hint on the subject of another, of which we have been advertised by a recent invitation addressed to my wife. Your daughter Elizabeth, it is announced, will not long bear the name of Bennet after her elder sister has resigned it, and the chosen partner of her fate is one whom I am joined, by Lady Catherine de Bourgh, in thinking most unsuitable.

    ‘This young gentleman is ruined, in a peculiar way, yet is endowed with everything the heart of a mortal can most desire: splendid property, noble kindred, and extensive fortune. Yet in spite of all these temptations, let me warn my cousin Elizabeth and yourself of what evils you may incur by a precipitate closure of this union, which, of course, you may be inclined to take immediate advantage of.’

    “He is being most discreet, eh, Lizzy? Ah – but now it comes out.”

    ‘My motive for cautioning you is as follows. We have definitive reason to imagine that his aunt, Lady Catherine de Bourgh, does not look on the match with a friendly eye.’

    Mr. Bennet chuckled. “Such careful address – and so delicately phrased. Our cousin is most kind to allow us this warning beforehand, despite the disapproval of his patroness. It is in every way admirable.”

    Elizabeth smiled a little, and her father peered up at her. “Are you not diverted?”

    “Of course. Pray, read on.”

    ‘After mentioning the announcement of this marriage to Her Ladyship last night, she immediately, with her usual condescension, expressed what she felt on the occasion; and it become apparent that on the score of some family objections on the part of my cousin, and doubts about Mr. Darcy’s soundness of mind, she would never give her consent to what she termed so disgraceful a match. I thought it my duty to give the speediest intelligence of this to my cousin, that she and her afflicted suitor may be aware of what they are about, and not run hastily into a marriage which has not been properly sanctioned.’

    “Mr. Collins moreover adds: ‘Were it not for my duty to Her Ladyship, I should be truly rejoiced for your sake that my cousins have made such advantageous marriages; but I must not neglect the duties of my station, or refrain from declaring my amazement at hearing that you received Mr. Darcy’s application with favor. Your consent was an encouragement of vice; and were I the rector of Longbourn, I should very strenuously refuse to perform the marriage ceremony. You ought certainly to accept what he is, by office of your conduct as a Christian, but never to admit him in your house, or allow him to marry one of your fair daughters.’”

    “That is his notion of Christian acceptance!” Mr. Bennet said with a sigh. “The rest of his letter is only about his dear Charlotte’s situation and his expectation of a young olive-branch. But, Lizzy, you look as if you did not enjoy it as much as I. You are not going to be missish, I hope, and pretend to be affronted at an idle condemnation. For what do we live, but to make sport for our neighbors and laugh at them in our turn?”

    Elizabeth looked at him cautiously. “Then you do not agree with him?”

    He appeared surprised by the question. “It is not a particular ambition of mine to be compared to my cousin, and I should certainly never presume to possess the same eloquence of speech. As to sentiments, I would hope that I would do something better than this.”

    “Then you will give us your blessing?”

    “I already gave you my consent.”

    “But not your blessing.”

    To her amazement, he smiled. “Should I ever dare to refuse it to you? I am not the sort of man capable of standing against your formidable will, Elizabeth.”

    “You will not regret our marriage?”

    “You may ask me that again in five years, but for now, I shall have to trust the both of you. Your Mr. Darcy is not such an intolerable fellow, and he is a wonder with the chessboard. I shouldn’t like to think I could be foolish enough to completely discount the worth of another such studious and scholarly fellow as myself. I anticipate a great meeting of the minds between us.”

    Elizabeth scolded him for teasing her, but the conversation was heartening. She began to see a real reason for hope in his attitude; it would be gradual and probably most frustratingly slow, but there was indeed progress, and that would have to be enough for now.


    Despite Colonel Fitzwilliam’s concerns, his father had indeed sent a note ahead warning his niece and nephew of the family’s imminent invasion – and it arrived at Netherfield but a half hour before they did.

    Although he had been anticipating a little more notification, Darcy could not really be astounded by their grand entrance into Hertfordshire. Frankly, he had been surprised that they had managed to stay away for so long; knowing his Aunt Helen, he expected their arrival a week at most after he had been injured. It had been gratifying, and perhaps somewhat perplexing, to find that they had truly heeded his desire to make as little trouble as possible for the Bennets and had remained at home.

    In addition, he had little doubt that his aunt and uncle would have steadfastly insisted on bringing him back to London to be seen to by their own physician; and nothing short of a tooth-and-nail altercation would have prevented them from dragging him off to Town. Collectively, his relatives were a formidable force to be reckoned with, and something that a man with two cracked ribs and a sprained hand oughtn’t have to deal with.

    As these infirmities were practically gone and he was feeling much more himself, Darcy read the short note with no trepidation and much eagerness to see his family again – although admittedly, it was somewhat jarring to find them on Netherfield’s doorstep a few minutes later.

    A bustle of activity and confusion immediately followed, and the butler’s bewilderment upon being besieged with so many guests was no less powerful than Darcy’s – and for a moment, as he saw the familiar figures crowding into the hall, he was positive his eyes were deceiving him. That momentary certainty, however, was done away with when his aunt hastened forward to enfold him in a tearful embrace.

    His uncle and cousins followed at a more sedate pace, although Sophy joined her mother in an enthusiastic hug, leaving Darcy with the fear that he might become asphyxiated by the cloud of perfume encompassing the two ladies.

    At length Lady Matlock stepped back, dabbing at her eyes before fixing an intent gaze on his face – Darcy knew she was searching for any lingering signs of his illness. Finding none, she let out a gusty sigh of relief and touched his cheek tenderly. “You are well now?”

    “P-Perfectly so.” He bent to kiss her cheek and then Sophy’s as his uncle came forward to place a somewhat unsteady hand on his nephew’s shoulder. “Good to see you about again,” he said, rather gruffly. “The physician looked after you well, I trust?”

    “He d-did.” Darcy smiled. “As d-did Miss B-Bennet.” He paused to warmly shake Edmund’s hand. “I am d-delighted to see you. Did you re...”

    “Uncle! Aunt Helen!” Georgiana’s voice rang out in surprised delight from the staircase, where she stood on the landing, peering down at the assembled group. “I thought the carriage in the drive looked familiar!” She scampered down the remaining steps to claim her share of kisses. A barrage of eager questions and exclamations erupted from the party, and the need for a more private opportunity for conversation resulted in a relocation to the nearest parlor.

    The Matlocks appeared concerned to be partaking of any services without the knowledge or consent of Netherfield’s master, but after it was confirmed that both the Bingleys were away for the morning and would certainly not view the family’s arrival as an impertinence, they accepted the offer of some refreshment.

    Georgiana and Sophy went over to serve the tea when it came, and the former glanced back over at her aunt and uncle, struck with a sudden notion. “Are your trunks still in the carriage? Surely Mr. Bingley would not mind if you unloaded.”

    Lady Matlock appeared a little scandalized. “We would never presume to intrude on Mr. Bingley’s hospitality without proper notice, Georgiana. This unannounced visit is insolence enough. We have secured a few rooms at the Inn at Meryton, and our luggage has already been settled there.”

    Darcy simply nodded – Bingley would have enough business to see to without the addition of anymore guests. Accepting a cup of tea from his sister, he took a sip and then looked curiously over at his relatives. “It is a s-surprise t-to see you so soon. D-did you receive the wedding invitation?”

    Lord Matlock coughed, shifting a little. “We did. Did you get our note?”

    Darcy removed the folded piece of parchment from his coat pocket. “Yes, just th-this morning.”

    The earl glanced over at his wife, appearing a little embarrassed. “Well, we sent it off yesterday, and then your aunt,” he stressed the words, his voice raising ever so slightly, “decided that if she didn’t see you at once, she would not have a moment’s peace.”

    “And neither would he,” Sophy whispered to Georgiana.

    “In any case,” Lady Matlock said, “we wanted to come and do what we could to assist you. And, of course, we wished to meet your Miss Bennet before she becomes our niece. We would have liked to have had her visit at the townhouse and dine with us, but obviously we will simply have to acquaint ourselves in a more hasty manner.” Her tone made it clear that she found this lack of proprietary introduction most inconvenient, but also was aware that complaint would be excessively foolish considering the circumstances. “Perhaps we might invite her to tea at the Inn? Or to dine, if there is a reputable dining house in the area?”

    “Th-There is no need for th-that, Aunt. The Bennets sup here at Netherfield two or three t-times a week of late; I am sure B-Bingley will not mind a few extra guests at the table.” Darcy knew that Miss Bingley would not object – an earl and countess dining in her brother’s house would be a particular triumph – but he was presuming a great deal and resolved to apologize later to his friend for the liberties. “Miss Elizabeth is very eager t-to meet you, and I know you c-cannot fail to f-find her agreeable.”

    The earl lifted an eyebrow at the edge in his nephew’s voice. “Has Catherine been harassing you again? We aren’t here to speak her piece for her, son.”

    Darcy flushed. “F-Forgive me. I know you would not d-do that.”

    Lord Matlock waved away the apology. “My sister is a persistent woman – but then, from what I hear, so is Miss Bennet.”

    “What your uncle means to say,” his wife interrupted, “is that we will undoubtedly think Miss Bennet as admirable a girl as you believe her to be.” She smiled and squeezed her nephew’s hand affectionately. “We shall be delighted to know her at last.”

    The conversation was cut short here, for the master of the house made his entrance in from the village. It was a rather awkward moment for the Matlocks, but Bingley, gracious as always, recovered swiftly from his surprise and refused to hear of Darcy’s family staying on at the inn. He insisted that bedchambers could be quickly opened and aired for their use. “Why should you have to stay there when there are several perfectly good rooms just upstairs?”

    “We do not wish to intrude, sir,” Lady Matlock said. “It is only more trouble for you, when your own wedding is so near.” She looked over at her husband and hesitated, for the notion of staying in the plain posting inn had not really appealed to her. “We would be very much obliged if you would allow us to introduce ourselves to the Bennets here; an inn does not seem the appropriate place for it.”

    “But of course,” Bingley cried, “and you must stay here at Netherfield as well. It is no trouble at all – why, the Bennets are coming tomorrow evening as it is; you shall be able to meet them then. My sister and I should be honored to have you join us.”

    The earl and countess exchanged a brief look before the former replied, “The honor is all ours, sir. We should be pleased to accept the invitation and your hospitality.”


    Elizabeth was not a person given to nervous fits or unreasonable anxieties, but this evening, as the family carriage trundled down the road to Netherfield, she was more disquieted than she had been in some time.

    Lacing her gloved fingers together on her lap to still their trembling, she watched the last flare of sunlight disappear behind the hills and tried to calm herself. She was not usually so overwrought at the thought of meeting new people, but this was to be no ordinary introduction. Darcy’s aunt and uncle were at Netherfield tonight, and Elizabeth could not help but be anxious. There had been so much opposition, so much discouragement, that she was desperate for someone to finally, wholeheartedly, approve of her marriage. She was not sure what the Matlocks thought of her or the behavior of her neighbors, but she wanted very badly for their approbation.

    The last thing she wished to do was cause another rift between Darcy and what remained of his family, so she could only hope that they were willing to accept her. They must be sensible people to have welcomed their nephew into their midst, deafness aside, and Elizabeth knew that he was fond of them – surely it could not be so very difficult to love them as well?

    “Lizzy, stop fiddling with your gloves!” Mrs. Bennet cried, fanning herself vigorously to combat the stuffy confines of the carriage. “You will wrinkle the satin, and then what will His Lordship and Her Ladyship think?”

    “Indeed, my dear,” her husband drawled. “I would not be at all surprised should they turn us away at the door itself.”

    Mrs. Bennet, taking this all in a serious light, slapped at her daughter’s hands. “Take care, Lizzy! – you will want to impress Mr. Darcy’s family, and you can hardly do that if you look a fright! Now, straighten your dress and stop fussing. You are bound and determined to shame us all!”

    Elizabeth did as her mother bid to forestall any further complaint; Jane reached over and held her hand for the remainder of the journey, and the small gesture helped lessen Elizabeth’s discomfort.

    All too soon, they were at Netherfield, and the butler showed them inside to the parlor where the rest of the party waited. Elizabeth’s eyes immediately sought out the imposing figure of her fiancé, and she soon discovered him by the mantle, standing next to a sandy-haired gentleman she didn’t recognize. Darcy looked up and smiled at her, an expression of reassurance and an affirmation of his affection all at once. She returned the gesture, her uneasiness melting away at this reminder of her situation; and when Bingley had welcomed his visitors and it was time for introductions, Elizabeth was ready to face whatever should happen next with good humor.

    Darcy drew forward, and the four unfamiliar guests followed him to approach the Bennets. Names were given and well-wishes exchanged; and Elizabeth studied the older couple covertly. Lady Matlock was a delicate, handsome woman, with quick dark eyes and a lovely smile; while her husband was tall and lean, with a distinguished face that was astonishingly familiar.

    The resemblance of Lord Matlock to his nephew was unmistakable: the shape of their eyes, the curves of nose and chin, were remarkably alike; the only great differences were the lines engraved about the older man’s brow and cheeks and the threads of silver shot through his black hair. It was as if she was looking at Darcy twenty years from now.

    The earl and countess were perfectly cordial, appearing sincere – if not overly warm – in their greetings. They seemed to be examining her as closely as she had them, and it amused her to know that their curiosity was as strong as her own.

    Darcy’s cousins were brought forward next. Lady Sophia bore a good resemblance to her mother, with something of the earl in the proud tilt of her chin; but her smile, as she curtsied to Elizabeth, was particularly friendly. Lord Grasham was a somewhat plain man, with a grave, modest face, but he spoke amiably with her and even smiled when she expressed her pleasure in seeing him so completely recovered from the previous winter’s accident.

    All in all, it went amazingly smoothly. Mrs. Bennet was too much in awe of the exalted status of the Matlocks to say much more than was required, and her father said nothing which she need blush for. The Gardiners could only improve the favorable impression, and even Lydia was relatively restrained.

    Miss Bingley, anxious to secure the good opinion of Colonel Fitzwilliam’s parents, was at her most elegant, presiding over the little party with as much liveliness and wit as she could muster. Presently her brother put a halt to the amusement and led everyone in to dinner, and Elizabeth found herself seated next to Lady Matlock and across from Mrs. Gardiner; and, to her vast relief, Mrs. Bennet was placed far down the table by Miss Bingley, a good distance from Lord Matlock, the viscount, and Lady Sophia, who were gathered around the head with Bingley and Mr. Bennet – an arrangement that Elizabeth was inclined to think providential.

    The first course was immediately served, but everyone was more interested in talking and observing than eating.

    “I believe you originally met my nephew here at Netherfield, did you not, Miss Bennet?” The countess’s voice was mild and measured, but Elizabeth suspected that the woman’s admiration could not be easily got.

    “I did, Your Ladyship.” Elizabeth thought of their humiliating run-in, and she smiled. “We might never have met again had Miss Darcy not been so kind.”

    Lady Matlock took a sip of wine. “Georgiana is a fine young woman,” she said after a moment. “She spoke of you often.”

    “We corresponded for a few months, while she and Fit...Mr. Darcy were in London during the winter.”

    The countess looked as though she longed to inquire if Georgiana was the only Darcy Elizabeth had been writing to then, but was too well-bred to ask. “Yes, of course. Fitzwilliam was good to come so quickly when Edmund was ill.” Her gaze turned onto her son, who sat deep in conversation with Mr. Gardiner. “It was an unsettling time for all of us. A woman does not realize, until she has little ones of her own, how love for her children transcends everyone and everything. You hurt when they hurt – you laugh when they laugh; and when they are unhappy, you feel their heartbreak as if it were your own. But when they are happy...” A soft smile touched her lips. “When they are happy, it seems as though all is right with the world again.”

    “It certainly is so,” Mrs. Gardiner chimed in. “I am sure you will know such things for yourself soon, Lizzy.”

    “Do you have children of your own, Mrs. Gardiner?” the countess politely inquired.

    “Four,” she replied laughingly, “and all are of such an age that mischief must be the order of the day.”

    The conversation logically turned to children and motherly concerns, giving Elizabeth a moment to collect her thoughts. After a few minutes, Lady Matlock drew the younger woman back into the discussion. “Although it is different in many ways, marriage is not dissimilar to raising children. The love between you is a bond that needs to be nurtured.” She paused thoughtfully. “You must be willing to compromise, to take joy in each other as well as deal seriously with those matters which might threaten the stability of a marriage; you sustain the friendship with your husband; you encourage him to succeed, and love him even when he makes mistakes – and you will be repaid tenfold in the strength of his affections.”

    “And, like any child, a husband requires a certain amount of scolding when he becomes unmanageable,” Mrs. Gardiner added.

    Lady Matlock smiled appreciatively. “Exactly.”

    “I think Mr. Darcy and I have faced things which neither of us ought to have ever seen or experienced,” Elizabeth said carefully, “and I have the firmest belief in the steadfastness of our attachment. We have dealt with so much – and all of it before our marriage. I begin to think that we may find our married life more restive than we should like.”

    Mrs. Gardiner laughed. “I sincerely doubt that, Lizzy.”

    “You are right, of course, Aunt – I shall be very glad to be away to Pemberley.”

    Elizabeth saw that Lady Matlock was watching her speculatively at this, but the next course was brought out, and several minutes passed before conversation resumed.

    “You met Fitzwilliam again in Kent, I believe?”

    “Yes – my friend, Mrs. Collins, is the wife of Lady Catherine’s rector. I was paying a visit to her over Easter.”

    “I also understand that my husband’s sister was most uncivil to you while you were there, and I wish to apologize for her, though she will never admit to the insult herself.” She hesitated. “I cannot imagine what she said, but I thought you should know that we are not all so eager to judge you.”

    “I am relieved to hear that.” Elizabeth glanced around to ensure that no one else was listening. “I know you have little reason to trust me, or anyone else in Hertfordshire, after what happened to Fitzwilliam here.”

    “How could we hold you to blame for any of this? You were, I understand, a very diligent caretaker, and we owe your family a great debt of gratitude for their kindness.”

    “It was not kindness; it was selfish where I was concerned, for I could not have borne it had something happened to him.”

    Lady Matlock nodded. “He has been through a great deal, particularly when he was but a child himself.”

    “I know,” Elizabeth said softly. “He told me about his father.”

    Whatever astonishment the countess felt was swiftly concealed. “Did he?” She worried her lip for a moment, and then smiled. “I am pleased to hear you say so.”

    “I could not have endured half of what he has,” she said truthfully. “His is a quiet sort of determination, but it never fails to amaze me.”

    Lady Matlock was silent. “You truly do care for my nephew?”

    Elizabeth swallowed past a sudden lump in her throat. “I do.”

    The older woman’s mouth quivered with emotion, but she soon masked it, and her dignified countenance was again perfectly steady. “Heaven bless you for it, Miss Bennet.”


    The days flew past, and before Elizabeth could fit her mind around the concept, a fortnight had gone by, and the last day before her wedding had arrived. Everything was planned and settled; the church was ready, the guests were ensconced at Netherfield or the Inn, and all was prepared – except perhaps the families involved.

    Mrs. Bennet could not be easy until her daughters had forfeited their names and the registry was safely signed and validated; but Mr. Bennet appeared to be unhappily aware of how soon his two eldest were to be gone. Elizabeth could not dwell long on what she would be leaving behind upon her marriage – her thoughts were of her future happiness.

    In that regard, at least, things appeared to be well settled. Elizabeth had spent more time in company with the Matlocks, and gradually she felt their reserve lessen. She had high hopes of a close and solid relationship with her new family, and it appeared that they were willing to accept her, given time to know her better.

    Prolonged exposure to the Bennets was bound to uncover a side of her mother and sisters which Elizabeth would rather not have revealed; but the Matlocks appeared to take the occasional bit of silliness or a word of foolishness perfectly in stride. As it was, Mrs. Bennet and her youngest daughters seemed to be on their best behavior; and there was nothing terribly mortifying that Elizabeth or Jane needed to explain away or attempt to ignore.

    Even with these advantages, Elizabeth needed a little time away from the excitement at Longbourn, and she often claimed the solitude of the small park on the estate’s eastern lawn as a peaceful escape.

    On this evening, the last one Elizabeth would ever spend at her childhood home, she felt a particular need to be out in this place which had witnessed bouts of frustration and many quiet hours of contemplation. Excusing herself from the parlor after the collective party of Bennets, Bingleys, Darcys, and Matlocks had dined, Elizabeth fetched her shawl and wandered out to the wooded copse.

    The night air was cool and calm, and she made a few rounds of the little park before coming to sit on a bench just behind the thick shelter of a strand of oaks, out of view of the house. She was not long there before muffled footsteps crackled in the grass behind her; and she turned to find Darcy leaning against a nearby tree, watching her, his hair ruffled by the slight breeze.

    With a smile, she held out her hand, and he came forward and kissed it, lowering himself to sit next to her. For a moment they sat in silence, enjoying the quiet night together, hands linked comfortably between them.

    Elizabeth put her fingers to his sleeve to gain his attention. “We marry tomorrow.”

    He smiled. “I kn-know.”

    There was a pause. “Are you afraid?”

    “Are y-you?”

    “A little.”

    He clasped her hand more tightly. “S-So am I.”

    “Oh.” She tilted her head to study his expression.

    “Are you anxious ab-bout marriage? Or anxious ab-bout marriage t-to me?”

    “Just marriage in general.” She paused. “Nothing will be the same again.”

    He stretched his long legs out in front of him and leaned back. “No, it w-won’t. Hopefully it will b-be better.”

    She smiled then. “I believe it will.”

    They lapsed into silence again; she shifted a little closer to him, resting her head in the crook of his shoulder. Her mind fixed upon a thought, and she lifted her face. “Fitzwilliam?”

    “Hmm?”

    “I heard something very interesting this morning from Dr. Lawrence, when he came to call on Papa.”

    She felt him stiffen. “Oh?”

    “Yes, I did. It seems he has taken Mrs. Simmons on as a cook; she and her child have moved into that cottage on the parsonage grounds.”

    “Good.” He cleared his throat. “I’m p-pleased to know she will b-be looked after. D-Did Dr. Lawrence have anything t-to say about the c-ceremony? I t-trust nothing has b-been altered.”

    His attempt to change the subject only confirmed her suspicions; and she had to bow her head to hide her smile behind the fold of his coat. As soon as she had composed herself, she looked back up at him. “I always thought Dr. Lawrence could not afford to hire on a cook. This will be a great improvement for him. How do you think he managed it?”

    It was a well-known fact, at least for those who had the misfortune to have ever dined at the parsonage, that the good reverend’s housekeeper could not cook. Everything, from mutton to teacake, came to the table burnt past all point of recognition. Dr. Lawrence had never been able to hire on a cook as well and so had made due with the tasteless fare for years. He was not a particularly discriminating diner, but it certainly deterred others with a more culinary bent from breaking bread with him.

    Darcy shifted uneasily. “I s-suppose he has b-been saving up for it. I c-can hardly think the man would like t-to spend his entire life without d-decent meals.”

    “I have also heard,” she continued mercilessly, “that a good many of the other ladies whose husbands were involved in...well, in that...have somehow managed to find work in some of the great houses; and, I believe, a few have even been able to find better situations in some of the neighboring villages. Is that not a wonderful coincidence?”

    Elizabeth saw that his lips were tightly compressed and that a slight hint of color rode high on his cheekbones. He was apparently determined not to say anything more, and she regretfully put a halt to her teasing.

    Despite his silence, she was given her answer as clearly as if he had confessed to the good deeds himself. A rush of warm affection welled up in her; and a new appreciation for his sense of honor and his compassion made her realize what a truly fortunate woman she was. Some men – perhaps most men – would never have been so forgiving. Dr. Lawrence might be the one to have housed Mary Ellen and her baby, but the funding for her salary – and that of the other women – was almost certainly coming from Pemberley’s coffers.

    “You are a good man, Fitzwilliam Darcy,” she whispered, leaning over to kiss him.

    She felt him smile against her lips. “Only you c-could th-think so, Elizabeth.”

    “I cannot agree with that,” she said gently, “but if you are determined to believe it, you must remember that I am always right.”

    “How c-could I forget?” He took her in his arms and kissed her deeply, lovingly, until she was dizzy from the heat of it. Pulling away, he smiled to see her dazed and hopeful face, and kissed her once more, this time with new tenderness. “I l-love you, Elizabeth – and t-tomorrow I hope I may finally sh-show you how much.”


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